Monday, May 28, 2012





jesse, karla and i went to see van halen with dlr (who told a story about his animals and kept getting mad because someone wasn't mopping the floor enough. he had to have a special dance floor). kool & the gang opened. it was pretty amazing.




then j and i stayed in a cabin by these animals for his bday. we had cake and ate beets and kale and went in a hot tub that overlooked a beautiful colorado valley and watched the movie hugo and slept a lot and looked at the sky and went on a hike and learned our fortunes from dimes and i became sick and coughed all night one night so we slept very little. i am sick still and haven't left bed in a very long time. in bed, i have been reading the letters of clare of assisi and learning what it was like to a franciscan holy woman.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Monday, May 21, 2012

Sunday, May 13, 2012

when we were at lunch today these two people came in and had a conversation. some of it went like this:

--what made you sit outside that place?
--you, maybe, i've been praying to meet someone.

--when i came to denver i started doing heroin and coke. 
--what's heroin like? i've never done it.
--you take your soul out and watch it for a minute and you put it back in.
--you can't take your soul out.

--really, you're an alcoholic?
--unfortunately.
--i am too to be honest with you.

--you've got to get over that whole dead thing.
--i've overdosed six times in my life.

--when later comes i'm sick from what i've done to my body.

--13 years old-he drank a bottle of whiskey and took 13 percocets and died two days ago. when she tried to wake him up he was dead. the whole town thinks that she killed him. i got this news yesterday. 

for my bday, we went bowling and then played jenga and skee ball and video games at the arcade bar.















Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Monday, May 7, 2012

tonight i have been making vegetable soup and reading brian foley's going attractions:

i thought
i had traveled far
but concussion depends on
how tall the grass is

over the weekend this incredible thing happened. j had to go to the planetarium for the sound artists so i went too. i watched the sound artist movie okay but then there was a sound cave we had to go into with blindfolds and i became afraid. mostly because of my experience in delores park with the vibrational alchemist. i left the planetarium and walked through the museum which was empty and closed. i evaded all of the security men. i went into the diorama hall and stood by the animals. no one was there and it was quiet.



i wanted to stay the night but i thought i might get nervous in the dark and be locked in so i left. guess what was outside of the animals. a prom. i stood in front of the prom. there were many people in prom outfits.

after the prom i filmed a sound that was out in a grove of trees. i couldn't see what was making it but it was a loud and beautiful sound. then j came out and felt crazy from being in the sound cave. he said it was like being in a machine for 45 minutes. the next day we went to the park to meet julia's parents who were in town. many people came to the park.








after the park, s, a & i went to play shuffle board (that is my toss below--sometimes i can be good at shuffle board) and skee ball and then j had to grade but i was trying to ask him interview questions instead.