i deleted my myspace account.
the reason i couldn't do it before was because there was a message there i could never read. it was sitting there, unread, for two years.
a lot of times, i would open the account and look at the message being there, but i would always log out without opening it.
it was from melissa, about her sister michelle. michelle was my best friend for a long time. melissa was too.
yesterday, i read it.
what i thought it would say, how michelle died, it didn't.
i don't know why i read it. i always thought something dramatic would have to happen in order for me to open it, but nothing happened at all--i just woke up and read it. i didn't even have to talk myself into it.
now i wish it was still there.