jesse, karla and i went to see van halen with dlr (who told a story about his animals and kept getting mad because someone wasn't mopping the floor enough. he had to have a special dance floor). kool & the gang opened. it was pretty amazing.

then j and i stayed in a cabin by these animals for his bday. we had cake and ate beets and kale and went in a hot tub that overlooked a beautiful colorado valley and watched the movie hugo and slept a lot and looked at the sky and went on a hike and learned our fortunes from dimes and i became sick and coughed all night one night so we slept very little. i am sick still and haven't left bed in a very long time. in bed, i have been reading the letters of clare of assisi and learning what it was like to a franciscan holy woman.

when we were at lunch today these two people came in and had a conversation. some of it went like this:

--what made you sit outside that place?

--you, maybe, i've been praying to meet someone.

--when i came to denver i started doing heroin and coke. 

--what's heroin like? i've never done it.

--you take your soul out and watch it for a minute and you put it back in.

--you can't take your soul out.

--really, you're an alcoholic?

--unfortunately.

--i am too to be honest with you.

--you've got to get over that whole dead thing.

--i've overdosed six times in my life.

--when later comes i'm sick from what i've done to my body.

--13 years old-he drank a bottle of whiskey and took 13 percocets and died two days ago. when she tried to wake him up he was dead. the whole town thinks that she killed him. i got this news yesterday. 

for my bday, we went bowling and then played jenga and skee ball and video games at the arcade bar.

tonight i have been making vegetable soup and reading brian foley's going attractions:

i thought
i had traveled far
but concussion depends on
how tall the grass is

over the weekend this incredible thing happened. j had to go to the planetarium for the sound artists so i went too. i watched the sound artist movie okay but then there was a sound cave we had to go into with blindfolds and i became afraid. mostly because of my experience in delores park with the vibrational alchemist. i left the planetarium and walked through the museum which was empty and closed. i evaded all of the security men. i went into the diorama hall and stood by the animals. no one was there and it was quiet.

i wanted to stay the night but i thought i might get nervous in the dark and be locked in so i left. guess what was outside of the animals. a prom. i stood in front of the prom. there were many people in prom outfits.

after the prom i filmed a sound that was out in a grove of trees. i couldn't see what was making it but it was a loud and beautiful sound. then j came out and felt crazy from being in the sound cave. he said it was like being in a machine for 45 minutes. the next day we went to the park to meet julia's parents who were in town. many people came to the park.

after the park, s, a & i went to play shuffle board (that is my toss below--sometimes i can be good at shuffle board) and skee ball and then j had to grade but i was trying to ask him interview questions instead.